Who I am sdf
At one point in my life I would have answered this question “who am I” the same way most of us would. With a list of the roles I play in life and descriptions of my character. The truth is that those are not who I truly am. They are what the world perceives me as, the impression of what I have become to others. I know I know, this is deep but lets be honest… we are all so much more than those things.
It all starts with awareness.
The Journey of self discovery is life long and some will never even start to ask questions to find out who they authentically are under all the labels and descriptions and beliefs. But this is the ultimate quest of happiness and fulfillment and one I am excited to be called to in my life.
It’s an exploration of who I truly am and why I am here on this earth in addition to the important roles I play as a mother of 3 boys, a wife to an amazing supportive husband, a daughter to incredible parents, a sister to two vastly different beings but whom I love tirelessly, and a dedicated wellness advocate for all.
Finding my light
In 2016 I decided I had hid myself for long enough. I had worn the perfectionism, superior performance, and the martyr masks for too long and it was time to shed the armor and face my fears. From as early as my teenage years I had developed the beliefs that my value and my worth was based on my ability to perfectly perform and that asking for help was a weakness. I created this belief and lived it like it was truth. Anything short of perfect would open a door for the world to see my flaws. It was exhausting and empty. Coming out of this hiding involved me taking a long look in the mirror and confront my past, including my traumas, and mostly my buried emotions.
Under all of the fear and self doubt what I’ve found is my light, the truest essence of who I am. And now that I have assumed my rightful position as the leading guide of my life nothing seems impossible. Opportunities seem limitless. Failure is an inevitability and I don’t fear it any more. I don’t believe I need to be perfect, I believe I AM perfect, even though flawed and fumbling and highly sensitive and emotional. All traits I used to be ashamed of that I now embrace and love as parts of me in addition to my truth, trust and honor. I’ve dropped my armor and my masks and the freedom I now have is forever.
What you see is what you get so hang on tight because I’m pretty freakin awesome.